This so-called life is just too...UNPREDICTABLE.

I have read all kinds of news on Teenagers. I've read way too much. And one of the hottest topic is always about teenager getting pregnant at a young tender age, isn't it? But news is news, they don't really bother me. But yes, I was bothered now. Tonight I was so utterly shocked when I heard that one of my friends was going to get married next month. I was like WTF?!?! Hell yea it is a real what-the-fuck. Who would have thought that this freaking pre-marriage pregnancy could happen to a friend of mine. 

Teenage is the best, the most awesome and wonderful time of our life. We should have fun, right? But quite a number of us go beyond the line, without thinking of the consequences of their immature actions. 

Admist the mixed up emotions, the only thing that I feel relieved is that the father of the baby is taking the responsibilty to my friend and her baby. What's done is done. Since we can't change the past, all we can do is to embrace it and move on. LIFE GOES ON. 

I sincerely wish you the best of luck in your marriage and future, my friend. All the best in everything! No matter what future holds and what happens next, we don't have a frigging idea and we can't control it. At all times, remember, you must SMILE! :) 你还是要幸福 okay :) There's still a long way ahead. Jiayou :)

 

keeping my secrets ; for her
- 2:04 AM

MEMORIES THAT NEVER FADE

I have officially finished my high school life. It was really really fast. 

I have always wanted to leave Kluang to further my studies, be it in Singapore or KL or anywhere, just not here. I wanted to explore the world outside and to experience the college life which my seniors claim to be carefree. Now I am free to leave, but somewhat I feel reluctant to leave my little hometown that I'm familiar with. I have too much memories here that I wish to keep - the times I had with my awesome friends and my family. I just can't bear to leave. But even though I stay, my friends will still leave, won't they? 

Aww my friends. I love you sooo much. I wonder if you still remember the first day we met - not knowing each other, not wanting to know, and not even a smile! Then we started with a simple smile. Then started with 'Hello', then became 'Hey', then 'loose, crack, all kinda names, silly fights same day, sorry' As time passed, our bond strengthened and became so unbreakable. We shared our days, hours and seconds, weals and woes, formed gangs. We consoled the other when one was down, cheered the other up when one was upset. I hope these memories are embedded deep in you heart too, my friend. 

But at the end of the day, we will still have to say goodbye and bid farewell. I wish best of luck to all of you! I will never forget all of you. I shall keep all the memories we had together in my heart. 

This world is just too cruel and bleeding. Do take care of yourselves, my friends!

People say “Things end. But memories last forever.” I hope it is what it is.

keeping my secrets ; for her
- 3:30 PM

2011年7月16日

下个拜六就是一年一度的hari koko了。

往年这个时候都超积极参与准备的我，现在什么也不想管。-_-

说要开会，好，我通知了所有执委。结果？只有一半的人来开会。这些人给予的反应又是什么？是沉默不语。对任何意见都毫无意见。

没关系。我继续强颜欢笑……

开了一个小时的会，话题还是一样。没有结论。

而人叻，陆续地回家了。

最后5分钟，乱乱安排了轮班的执委后，散会。

这是什么开会？！

更气的是  有人竟然在隔壁聊天而不来开会！“你们开就好了啊 不差我一个。”那人理直气壮地说。*无言* 我默默离去。

对于这个学会，我真的失望透了。

什么活动都没有。往年都有的比赛和卖糖果活动，今年竟然什么都没有。手上所剩的钱日益减少。义卖会的成本是少之又少。

学会的衣服  又是我一手包办。从订货，给订金，到拿货，有谁帮我？明明订到够够的衣服，分派下去后竟然有人跟我说他没拿到。哎  这个学会的头也不加理会。我也不可能特地去订多一件吧？所以数个月后，这位小妹妹还是没有衣服==

心冷了啊  想对老主席们说对不起  这个学会没救了  可我一个人的力量有限  救不活这个学会

再次很诚心地说  对 不 起

keeping my secrets ; for her
- 3:51 PM

THE END OF 2010

well.. I've come to the very end of 2010. I'd like to thank everyone including those who had helped or had hurt me. All of you have make me grown. I hereby apologize to those whom i'd accidentally hurt. be it verbally or whatever. I'm really sorry. Next year, I still need your to correct me when i'm wrong, scold me when i don't realize my stupid mistakes, accompany me when i'm feeling down. Friends forever kay guys! :D

Honestly speaking, I have really grown alot alot this year. and I don't wish 2010 to end so soon but I can't help with it. Throwing the clock in the room will not stop the world from turning around. lol. 

In the year or 2011, I wish everyone's dreams will come true. Jiayou everyone! We'll be facing alot of drastic changes and extreme challenges this year. the freaking SPM is charging at us. It's time for all of us to get up, hold our weapons, and fight against it! I believe victory will be ours soon! :)

School is gonna reopen next monday :(  I wish listening to Taylor Swift's back to december helps. haha. 

NEW YEAR, NEW HOPE, AND BRAND NEW ME!! :DD

Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right!!

keeping my secrets ; for her
- 4:50 AM

SINGAPORE TRIP 2010

Well, I’m home again after a 10-days-trip in Singapore. Really had a good time with cousins and friends. C=

Hilary Lim really embarrassed herself like hell. xD

Day 1 – taking pictures with Meixin like some kampong girls in Starbucks. Got flash somemore! LOL. People around us were staring at us with big rounded eyes.  O_O

Day 2 – we went to Bakerzine for dinner at Vivo City after coming back from Sentosa. 

Hilary: “Can I change for 2 one ringgit?”

*the guy was stunned* “not enough”  a few seconds later…”tak cukup”

I was laughing like hell xDDD

Day3  -  we were at ion orchard. We went into the Mango shop. Hilary was like “OMG! Cheap dao siao! *with a typical auntie’s slang, followed by a natural auntie’s hand motion*” I was like WTF. Don’t embarrass me again. *faints*

Day4 – the ringgit incident had come back to haunt Hilary again. @@  Again, she was short of small notes. Here she goes~

“Can I change for 2 two ringgit and 1 one ringgit?”

“HUH?” says the shocked shopkeeper.

“Can I change for 2 two ringgit and 1 one ringgit?” repeats Hilary with patience and smile on her face.

“HUH???” replies the dazed shopkeeper with question marks all over her head.

“oh!” Hilary has come to her senses. “can I change for 2 two SING DOLLARS and 1 one SING DOLLARS?”

*the shopkeeper laughed and changed the money for her*  *Hilary Lim blushed and left in a hurry*

Day5 – thank god she did not do anything embarrassing. *phewww*

I’d really learnt a lot in this trip. C= as this was my first time I’d boarded the bus alone, boarded the mrt alone, walked on Orchard Road alone like some sad life(LOL),  gone back to Malaysia unaccompanied by any adults… I was kind of scared at first but I managed to overcome the fear in the end! :D  It was really a good experience! C=

I tried to localize myself but unfortunately FAILED. LOLS. I can’t speak Singlish :S

In Singapore, everything is just awesome. Unlike Malaysia, everything sucks. *sigh* Even in KL, the mrt is so dirty, you can see tissue papers everywhere.  And the public transport in so inconvenient. As a student who cannot drive, I would prefer Singapore which offers a convenient and efficient public transport system. C=

Singaporeans really walk fast. I could hardly catch up with the fast pace when I first went there.  But life in SG is much harder than life in M’sia. They barely have holidays. Fyi, Malaysia is the world record holder of the country-with-the-most-holidays.  I think that explains why M’sia would never share a same level with SG like what they had before SG had left M’sia.

Everytime when I come back from Singapore, I’ll do some soul-searching. I have a strong urge to go study in SG right now but I know I can’t as I definitely can’t catch up with their educational syllabus which emphasizes on Mathematics and English. The only thing I can do is to study hard to get good results in SPM and get scholarship from SG polytechnic. But I’m always lazy =.=” zzzz

So I hope what I’d seen in Singapore will constantly remind me to study hard hence acts as a pushing force to keep me going on. C=

keeping my secrets ; for her
- 1:10 AM

E.M.O.

ONE may have many friends. but how many TRUE friends does he/she have? when you're sad, is there anyone caring for you? is there anyone who is willing to sit down and listen to your stories which can be damn freaking long? is there a shoulder for you to lean? 

some friends are NOT your friends. oh no..i should put it in this way. some PEOPLE are not friends. they're just some lame passer-bys in your wonderful life. they like to tease you, make fun of you, embarrass you *especially in front of the people who are very important to you*. and they think it's FUN. it is not fun AT ALL actually. do they ever think how deep they might hurt you? 

THEY ARE JUST SOME CRAPPY, BITCHY, SLUTTY HUMAN BEINGS.

_I shall not waste my time on these unimportant shit in my life. I shall not get angry over these craps. They’re not worth for it._

_I shall thank these PEOPLE for showing up in my life, giving me a chance to grow stronger, to learn to give and take and to look things in a different way._ 

keeping my secrets ; for her
- 11:59 PM

FUN!  =D

four months have passed.. how time flies! and now i'm updating my blog again! haha. MIRACLE HAPPENS~ my stupid jukebox didn't work four months ago. just now i opened my blog page, i was surprised and shocked that it works! lol. crazy one. i didn't even do anything to it.

Shit lah. exams coming again. it's mid-year exam! i know it's gonna be freaking hard but i don't really care! haha. i'm mentally prepared to get the lecture from my biology teacher. scold me as much as you want lah! u fucking bitch! go to hell!!!!

haha. i had a fun-filled day with hilary, yehqi, huisin, jason and crystal! love u guys! haha.i was out for meeting. but when having meeting, i didn't even concentrate lor. haha. kept on talking only. =D later we went to watch shrek! haha. one of the sons of shrek is actually called FARKLE which sounds like FUCKER! hahaahhaha. freaking funny lah! exams coming soon and i haven't even started studying at all! haha. wasted whole day outside! =D gonna ask u guys out after exams again. haha.

thats it. will update again after exams about my 'awesome' results. haha. cya~

keeping my secrets ; for her
- 10:20 PM

50% SaD 50% HapPy

awww...do u noe that PARAMORE is going sg!! is feeling sour after being constantly reminded that they are going sg!! so sad..i cant go coz got stupid exams.. >_<~!!! but another thing which rejoices me is that KELLY CLARLSON is coming to malaysia!!! wow!!! I AM GOINGGGGG!!! hahaha. xDxD n u noe what..http://kellyclarkson.com/index.htm?id=18044&sid=17773 this stupid link nvr shows shes comin m'sia..wth..


bloody exam is after the march hols..wth..i was planning to go sg during that one-week hols..wtf? again!! its exam!!! so i cant go anymore..T_T i think i will surely die in the march exam lor..i havent even started preparing! haha.. form4 is damn damn frigging hard.. i'm looking forward to see my 'good' results! haha.. kays..gtg..cya

keeping my secrets ; for her
- 7:32 PM

SG trip 09'

I decided to REVIVE my dead blog! lol..the SG trip 09' is the most horrible n 'adventurous' trip i ever had..the journey to sg n back to kluang..my sg trip began on 14dec..early in the morning i woke up..then SUPPOSED to take the train at 8am..but the train was delayed for 1hr30mins..on the way..it broke down! wth..for dunno how many hrs.. it was like wtf.. so we came out from the house at 6:50am then reached sg at 3sth..bloody hell.. i could reach thailand! lols..


After tat day..we went ion orchard..with cousins...bloody sis threw tantrums..xuanpi wasnt feeling well..grandma followed too! i kana lectured! holy shittt...but i ignored her~haha..was evil..! anyways goin ion with grandma wasnt fun at all..but we took a lot of pics!! xDD


Xuanpi they all left the next day..its so boring..coz haolong's gone! i couldnt be bothered to care xuanpi's existence lor..haha..after they left..we still survived! haha..that was random..


Goin ion with cousins is DIFFERENT from goin there with grandma..A BIG DIFFERENCE! lols..cousins love  to go ion! i've been there THRICE in one wk!! lols..they love to go takashimaya n eat random stuffs too! anyways..tako pacchi is damn nice! xD bloody sis who has got bad taste says it tastes WEIRD..wth? i like the cream puff too! im dribbling..lol..


One day..we went somerset..theres a lot of nice stuffs! bloody sis wanted to but bagggggggggggg..but shes like mental or what..weird? dunno.. she din buy bag.. then the next day we went orchard central or ion..i cant rmbr..lols..she made ning had to walk back to somerset to buy A BAG! then we walked all the way there n she told us I DON WAN TO BUY LIAO..WTF? ning was like wanna eat her up liao..haha..


We go orchard rd by taking great world city's free shuttle...if we wan to go back..we have to take the free shuttle too..one day i was like wondering if i wan to go in giordano n buy clothes..ning wanted to rush back to take the free shuttle..then i was like hesitating..but at last we decided to rush back..on the way i heard kelly clarkson's already gone..then i told bin bin the bus's already gone..that was random i noe..haha..lol..ning n bloody sis were in front of me n bin bin..the bus left in front of them..bin bin n i saw the bus leaving too! T_T


Mico came! we went to eat swensens! its damn fking nice!!! its awesome! the food is pretty! n the price is pretty too! LOL..we ate ice cream buffet! its awesome! mico n i was so random lor..we eat too free then go take pictures of food n ice creammm..mico was even worse than me..haha...she decorated the ice cream nicely..she was being slef-obsessed..she said the worker was like admiring her to be able to decorate the ice-cream so nicely..wth? then ning paid the $$$..the bill was so awesome too! its 179bucks!! then we walked around ion..i met louis! haha! he came hit me from the back..wth..i kana shocked..zzzz but its nice to meet him there..we're so meant to be frens..haha..stupid ning said some crappp..she said she got it why we are frens..its bcoz we look alike..why the heck looking alike is related with being frens? i think the 'look alike' is bcoz we both have many pimples lor..T_T After that, mico went into watsons..trying all the lipsticks' colours n eyeliners n perfumes..bin bin n ning were enjoying too..lol..i went outside there n waited for them..but after so long i din see they come out from that bloody shop..so i went in..wth? they still trying! then i went upstairs n walked around..i met louis again! haha..he was like sad life lor..hahaha..leaning the wall alone..haha..coz his mum was trying shoes..i left after saying hello to him..zzz..


On 21dec,mon..we had to leave..then i bugged ning to take me to vivo city..she dwn take me there! xuany took me there..but there's nth..=.=" then we went home..at night i went great world city with yima n ning's mum..it was WHAT THE HELL! so boring..thank god i had earphones n psp..then i sat there,listening to songs n playing psp while waiting them to change STOCKINGGGGGGGS..wth..then i had to deliver dinner to ning they all..zzzzz..i went esprit..there's nth! all the clothes are UGLYYYYYYY...! then i went zara..the clothes there are pretty n nice!! so is the price! lols..then i din buy anything..we went home..i discoverd my camera was missing!! *then went to search the living rm like nuts..the whole family was looking for it..haha..n i found it in bossini bag this morning when i was tidying up my clothes..* so we left without my camera..we went great world city n queued there..there's damn many ppl!!! ning's mum went home n asked ning to come over n hire an on-call taxi..there was no taxi!! wth? finally there's a taxi..then we got it in n went to railway station..we ran all the way to ticket counter as we havent bought the tickets yet n the time was 9:55pm..the train gonna start off in 5mins! stupid counter guy told yima the train's ALREADY GONE..but there were two kindhearted guys..they asked to get into the train first then buy the tickets on the train..we were the last who boarded the train..they came to check tickets..we din have..they said if we wanna stay in the train,we had to pay 20bucks as punishment then plus the ticket's $$ which is 16bucks..they asked us to get down the train at JB to buy tickets..if there's tickets..then we could board the train..if there's not..then we have to get lost..T_T there's no tickets left! T_T wtf? its raining somemore..we called lim cheng teck to fetch us..its 12sth..four of us squish in a small master bedroom..yima slp on the floor(sad lifeee)...bloody sis n i n lim cheng teck slp on two mattress..so the next morning..we went home by bus..(don dare to take train anymore) its so risky..yima said its so ADVENTUROUS..=.=" its rather DANGEROUS lor.. this is my horrible sg trip 09'..besides the train incidents..this trip is PERFECTLY FINE! needa slp..bye

keeping my secrets ; for her
- 1:18 AM

update~

Since yining n wen jia keep nagging me for not updating for so long..i decided to update.. imma post smth bad~ haha xD have ur met somebody that keeps adding ppl? keep adding whoever he/she sees.. n ppl he/she doesnt even noe.. just ADD! this is so f**king annoying rite? @*#$%!^&*%$@&  whats the point of adding so many ppl one doesnt noe? is it very proud having many frens? my sis is this kind of person! shes so scared when ppl come ask her WHO ARE YOU? then she'll ignore them. she has added all my frens practically.. she even added ning's frens! WTH.. i really should upload her 'nice-looking' pic on facebook.. then all her so called frens will remove her.. hahas.. xD im evil! xD kays..bye.. god noes when i'll post again..maybe when yining nags non-stop.. nitee everyone~~

keeping my secrets ; for her
- 12:47 AM